Thankful Tuesday...

Its been a while since Ive been on here. Ive been super busy lately sitting poolside in this 90 degree heat, tanning, waking up at 7am to do my work outs, running errands...and oh yeah..chatting with some AWESOME lds guys and girls online whom ive made great friends with. I feel almost healed. Life is starting to feel normal again..My daughter Skylar is spending the summer with her dad, and although I miss her to death, Im excited she and I both get a mini vacation. She is having a blast up there, and thankfully Jason still takes her to church even tho he isnt LDS. Halleluja!! Heres a few more things im thankful for:

Rockin tans..
Im a size 12 now!! wooooot!
men who are interested
chats
ice cold water
trails
my beloved medicine ball
Top Gear
supportive exes
big hair bands...lol
count downs to visit friends in Washington!!!
summer weather
THE POOL
Old Navy...they know me by name now cuz i buy new clothes every week

Man, I love summer!!

Today I went across the street from my condo to get breakfast in the most awesome hawaiian style cafe..THE BREADCRUMB OHANA CAFE. They have the biggest and best breakfasts EVER. Then I went to the pool TWICE with my kids..We are tan. Now my son and I are getting ready for our "date" together, where we will go to town (it being Tuesday) to schmooze with the tourists while they close off Mainstreet and bring out all the bands. We might hit the pier..We might play in the sand..whatever. I knwo we are going to BJ's to get a Pizookie. I LOVE SUMMER!!

New haircut..again

So I went to get a new haircut and wanted my hair shagged out and a little wild..what I got was something short. Its still very cute, but not what I expected..Its taking me some time trying to figure out how to style it like she had it. I can never redo what she shows me. LOL. Im hair-tarded. Also ive gotten brave enough to wear horizontal stripes...and can officially wear clothes in the junior miss deparment! woot! Im almost a size 12..hopefully another month.

THANKFUL THURSDAY

I havent done a thankful thursday in a bit..so side tracked lately! I actually remembered today. Yay me! Lots has happened this week. I shopped in the junior miss section of Target for the first time in YEARS. I cant even tell you how that makes me feel. I also got my hair chopped off. I didnt intend for it to be, i just wanted it razor cut so i could punk shag it out and make it flip..I got a very short cut instead. My stylist Shelley is very good tho, so it looks very cute. Just not what I expected. It will feel good this summer to have short hair, im sure. My punkin leaves me tomorrow for the entire summer to be with her dad. Im both sad and grateful for the rest. I will feel all alone in that bed without her kicking me at night. *sniffle*..I know she will have a great time up there. Ive also made some friends being on LDS Mingles, and have been having a ball chatting with them. Its really helped me relieve my social stress. After all this, I got a card from my best gal, Sara, in the mail. Life is good! More things im thankful for....

Taking walks for smaller pants sizes
A working vehicle
helpful family members
Having my insurance in order (next focus, car registration..woot..)
Charlie
mommy and me dates..(its erins turn tonight!)
sparkly things..
the swimming pool and my new floatie
frozen yogart and scrabble
bean burritos and green salsa verde
Those gorgeous purple trees that I get to walk under every day

The Gypsy Chronicles...

I finished reading THE GYPSY CHRONICLES by Alison Mackie, and I have to say how much I loved it. Its been described as a bedtime story for adults..It truly is. Its a book based on the gypsies of Ronda, Spain, and the magic of love in their lives. Its very romantic and very rich with messages of love and longing to be loved. I must warn that its somewhat sexual..its graphic for only split seconds, but the descriptions are like poetry. I found myself by the end of the book, believing in love at first site, the magic of souls meeting, and the intensity you feel upon meeting the love of your life and knowing with a surety from the moment you touch. Most of these stories of true love happened within a day, and ended the day in marriage. The amount of passion by these people is enough to make completely jealous of what they have. A few quotes from this book that I loved are:

"No man shows his soul to another man..he shows it only to a woman."

"I was the love letter that found myself wrapped in the envelope of his embrace.."

"Lovers dont finally meet somewhere, Theyre in each other all along.."

"Dont surrender your loneliness so quickly. Let it cut more deep. Let it ferment and season you, as few human or divine ingredients can.."

Isaac turns 8

Today is a very special day to me...My son (who passed away) would have been 8 years old today. I have felt very emotional lately which is a testament to me that he is still nearby. I felt his presence on mothers day, and ive felt him at random times today when, for no apparent reason, I felt happy and tearful. He would have been baptised and I think he is tryin to remind me of this special year. I think i'll go out and get cupcakes to celebrate.

My best friends

Jason sent me this picture last night from a friends birthday party. These three people are my best friends since Junior High, 17 years ago. Thank you for the photo. I might actually frame it. I feel the need to say something about each of them.

*Hans is the greatest photographer, salsa/guacamole maker, and car enthusiast ive ever met. He is also one of the sweetest, thoughtful, and most kind men Ive ever had the aquaintence to be around. His company always fills my soul with sunshine.

*Sara is like my sister. She is the ying to my yang. The mac to my cheese. We may not agree on some things, but on everything else, you couldnt find another person to match me better with in friendship. She completes me as a person. I love you, Miss Sara!

*Jason is my soon to be exhusband and though we are going thru trying times, he will always be one of my soul mates. He is also a very talented musician whom I could sit and listen to for hours on the drums or guitar. Ive never had more fun adventures with anybody else, or found anyone else who would induldge my quirky whims quite like him.

These people are forever my family. I miss you guys. *crap..now im crying*