The older I get...

My friend Jon posted a blog in regards to how he feels about things, the older he gets. I thought it was a great idea for a blog. So here is my list...

"The older I get, the more I......"

Am determined to find a good man..
Want to finish school and feel successful for the first time in my life..
Need affection..
Worry about my kids..
Love avacadoes..
Laugh to relieve stress
Realize bitterness is stupid
Enjoy exersising
Want to be worthy of blessings..
Come out of my shell..
Want to make sure my kids have every opportunity they can..
Tolerate onions..hehe
Enjoy reading..
Expand my musical tastes..
Understand how the "plan" works in relation to ME personally..
Forgive..
Chill, because stressing does NOTHING
Learn
See a silver lining..
Try to stay young..
Obsess about how my body is changing..
Need to feel loved..
Need sleep
Love to dance..
Yearn to travel..
Understand Seinfeld jokes
Forget things..
Hate to be told what to do..
Want to be respected..
Get into debt..
Enjoy a nice grilled cheese sammich..
LOVE cars
Want to ride a dirtbike
Need a good massage!!!

I just wanna DANCE!

Last friday night was the midsingles dance in Santa Monica to celebrate Halloween. It was so much fun! Ive never seen a dance so packed. My friend Jon was the DJ so I thought id go hang with him for the evening. I went as a Big Hair band groupie. My hair was ratted huge,(as usual,) and I sported a lovely mini jean skirt, heels, leggings, leg warmers, an AC/DC shirt, a VIP pass, handcuff earrings, and more bracelets then you can imagine..I also put a fake "BRETT FOREVER" tattoo up my forearm. The costumes at the dance were amazing! I was so impressed. I wound up talkin to, and dancing most of the night, with Jons friend Aaron. We hit it off pretty good. The dance finally wound down around 13am after the cops were called, twice..Here are a few pictures.

Thankful thursday, back on track!

Ok its time to get things back the way i originally had them..Ive been so busy tryin to make it thru school, bein a mom, and dealing with lifes emotional curve balls, that ive neglected so much of the things i love. blogging being one of them..im happy to get back to it.

Im thankful to be getting into a groove with my new teacher..now if only i could open my Pathology book without puking.

Im thankful for the girls in my class, cuz we've bonded and have private jokes. haha

I was asked out on a date for next friday..Im nervous as all get out. Hes a bit older, which freaks me out, but im not letting that stop me from a night out. Hes really nice, so i figured what the heck. Plus he has a sail boat and plays in a classic rock band. haha

JOGGING MAKES ME HAPPY...i seriously wish my middle would slim down tho..

Today we have to wear tight revealing clothing to school, so we can study our bodies..this would ordinarily freak me the hell out. Im thankful it doesnt, even tho i still dislike how i look. Im feelin ok about it...

I love how skylar looks in pigtails

Run Fat Boy Run is a hilarious movie...i snorted and cackled uncontrolably.

I love reading my friend Jons blog..(disco pimp)..he makes me smile with his short little remarks and great pictures.

I spent a good part of the week at the pool with my kids in the heat..I love it here. And im tan...

Kasi is finally getting a divorce, (for the 3rd attempt)...I think she has finally seen the light and its gunna happen this time. Believe me, this is a good thing. She deserves some happiness and faithfulness.

They make tiny ben and jerrys icecreams! They are so friggin cute!! And very tastey. Perfect size for my kids during movie night.

THANKFUL THANKFUL!

Its been waaaaaaaaaay too long since I did a thankful thursday. So thankful monday will have to suffice. Its been an amazing month filled with highs and lows. Ive met some awesome people and hope to meet many more that i can call friends. Heres my list!

Im thankful for:

Singles dances..tho sometimes full of old people in toupes, I cant help but shake my groove thang. I need the release.

Ldslinkup and all the friends ive made on there.

Finding peace with my ex. I no longer feel weird knowing he has a girlfriend, or even that its someone I dont care for. I no longer feel anger or resentment towards my ex sister in law, and even sent her an invitation to my sons concert.

Erics concert!!! He is in the Orange county childrens choir and is preparting for the christmas concert at the Performing Arts Center in Costa Mesa. Full orchestra, and Julliard professionals. Im very excited. He loves it and is doing so well.

Hearing Eric play piano. He is doing sooo well. He is trying to play both hands now and even pulls out the hymn books to see if he can play the notes.

JOGGING!! i try to jog every day and its done wonders for my body getting smaller. I just wish it would firm up..

SCHOOL!! im having the best time going to school and am doing really well so far. The girls are wonderful. My teacher is awesome and so full of knowledge. I know these months will go by quickly.

Thin crust pizza...need i say more?

Tunes I can groove to.

I was able to get out to a bike track finally!! havent done that in 8 years! Felt good to get on the back of dads dirt bike and go take some pictures.

Little girls hair bows. I love seeing my girls look pretty.

Eric with a book. He is a total book worm and always has a little novel on him at all times.

Thats all for now! I'll be back lata...

ENLIGHTENMENT!!

I LOVE MY NEW CLASS!! My teacher is the most awesome guy ever and he is so freaking smart about holistic and homeopathic medicine, which makes more sense to me then normal medical practices. I much prefer natural approaches and organic treatments to anything else...The body is natural, it needs natural things to function properly. Easy logic.

ANYWAY!! I was enlightened last night upon learning about the digestive system..as well as the liver and gallbladder functions. My gallbladder was removed 7 years ago, and ive been a mess ever since, not realizing why. NOW IT ALL MAKES SENSE!! Doctors never took the time to explain the gallbladder function and why its important. They just took it out and said I wouldnt need it. Booo. Well without it the body isnt able to absorb fats, and the essential vitamins needed for proper body function are now unable to get absorbed (doesnt matter how healthy i eat, the nutrients go right thru me.) Key symptoms of this are extreme irritability and rage issues (which i seem to be getting worse with,) horribly dry skin (i flake like crazy, and my girly well dried up years ago..ugh!!) and extreme difficulty losing weight. WHAT??? So this is why i cant get below a size 12 even tho i exersise daily?? FINALLY AN ANSWER!! I feel totally enlightened. He also told me what I needed to do to fix myself...OX BILE. Comes in capsul form, not expensive, and i will have to take it for the rest of my life to maintain a healthy status. Basically it will do for me what my gallbladder was suppose to. I cant wait to see if it works, and how my moods will change. I also want my girly parts back in working order, damnit. LOL. Hope this helps anybody out there who may have this same issue. VIOLA!

my quest!

Here is my progress so far in the weight loss department. I still have about 30 pounds to go. Im down to 165 now, and things are goin pretty well. Id like to tone up more then anything at this point. im getting smaller but im still a jiggly mess of stretch marks and cellulite..only now i dont have the fat to fill it in with. ugh. being a woman really sucks sometimes. I started jogging and i love it. i wish i could do it more often, but its hard while pushing a stroller. haha. I'll post another pic in a month to see what things are lookin like by that point, also. wish me luck!

Twilight zone....

Ive been on a few LDS dating sites since my divorce just to see whats out there and I have to say that im a little baffled. Almost everybody seems to be single in Utah..why cant you people find each other?? Also, from an outsiders perspective it would infact look as if we were a cult, or our own culture entirely made up of wannabe Californians (fake blondes, manicures, fake tans, and Holister/Abercrombie wearers)..And whats with the Jack Johnson obsession?? Its like a twilight zone..not Zion! LOL. Its been hysterical. Everyone is the same (guys and girls)..Its a little creepy. Anyway I just had to share these thoughts because they've been plaguing me. Ive been checked out by hundreds of guys and theyve all been like clones of each other. Weirdo-rama! Will I ever find a guy who likes a curvy bodied, natural brunette, that enjoys all music and might show her enthusiasm with a swear word every now and then? c'mon guys!