THANKFUL THANKFUL!

Its been waaaaaaaaaay too long since I did a thankful thursday. So thankful monday will have to suffice. Its been an amazing month filled with highs and lows. Ive met some awesome people and hope to meet many more that i can call friends. Heres my list!

Im thankful for:

Singles dances..tho sometimes full of old people in toupes, I cant help but shake my groove thang. I need the release.

Ldslinkup and all the friends ive made on there.

Finding peace with my ex. I no longer feel weird knowing he has a girlfriend, or even that its someone I dont care for. I no longer feel anger or resentment towards my ex sister in law, and even sent her an invitation to my sons concert.

Erics concert!!! He is in the Orange county childrens choir and is preparting for the christmas concert at the Performing Arts Center in Costa Mesa. Full orchestra, and Julliard professionals. Im very excited. He loves it and is doing so well.

Hearing Eric play piano. He is doing sooo well. He is trying to play both hands now and even pulls out the hymn books to see if he can play the notes.

JOGGING!! i try to jog every day and its done wonders for my body getting smaller. I just wish it would firm up..

SCHOOL!! im having the best time going to school and am doing really well so far. The girls are wonderful. My teacher is awesome and so full of knowledge. I know these months will go by quickly.

Thin crust pizza...need i say more?

Tunes I can groove to.

I was able to get out to a bike track finally!! havent done that in 8 years! Felt good to get on the back of dads dirt bike and go take some pictures.

Little girls hair bows. I love seeing my girls look pretty.

Eric with a book. He is a total book worm and always has a little novel on him at all times.

Thats all for now! I'll be back lata...

ENLIGHTENMENT!!

I LOVE MY NEW CLASS!! My teacher is the most awesome guy ever and he is so freaking smart about holistic and homeopathic medicine, which makes more sense to me then normal medical practices. I much prefer natural approaches and organic treatments to anything else...The body is natural, it needs natural things to function properly. Easy logic.

ANYWAY!! I was enlightened last night upon learning about the digestive system..as well as the liver and gallbladder functions. My gallbladder was removed 7 years ago, and ive been a mess ever since, not realizing why. NOW IT ALL MAKES SENSE!! Doctors never took the time to explain the gallbladder function and why its important. They just took it out and said I wouldnt need it. Booo. Well without it the body isnt able to absorb fats, and the essential vitamins needed for proper body function are now unable to get absorbed (doesnt matter how healthy i eat, the nutrients go right thru me.) Key symptoms of this are extreme irritability and rage issues (which i seem to be getting worse with,) horribly dry skin (i flake like crazy, and my girly well dried up years ago..ugh!!) and extreme difficulty losing weight. WHAT??? So this is why i cant get below a size 12 even tho i exersise daily?? FINALLY AN ANSWER!! I feel totally enlightened. He also told me what I needed to do to fix myself...OX BILE. Comes in capsul form, not expensive, and i will have to take it for the rest of my life to maintain a healthy status. Basically it will do for me what my gallbladder was suppose to. I cant wait to see if it works, and how my moods will change. I also want my girly parts back in working order, damnit. LOL. Hope this helps anybody out there who may have this same issue. VIOLA!

my quest!

Here is my progress so far in the weight loss department. I still have about 30 pounds to go. Im down to 165 now, and things are goin pretty well. Id like to tone up more then anything at this point. im getting smaller but im still a jiggly mess of stretch marks and cellulite..only now i dont have the fat to fill it in with. ugh. being a woman really sucks sometimes. I started jogging and i love it. i wish i could do it more often, but its hard while pushing a stroller. haha. I'll post another pic in a month to see what things are lookin like by that point, also. wish me luck!

Twilight zone....

Ive been on a few LDS dating sites since my divorce just to see whats out there and I have to say that im a little baffled. Almost everybody seems to be single in Utah..why cant you people find each other?? Also, from an outsiders perspective it would infact look as if we were a cult, or our own culture entirely made up of wannabe Californians (fake blondes, manicures, fake tans, and Holister/Abercrombie wearers)..And whats with the Jack Johnson obsession?? Its like a twilight zone..not Zion! LOL. Its been hysterical. Everyone is the same (guys and girls)..Its a little creepy. Anyway I just had to share these thoughts because they've been plaguing me. Ive been checked out by hundreds of guys and theyve all been like clones of each other. Weirdo-rama! Will I ever find a guy who likes a curvy bodied, natural brunette, that enjoys all music and might show her enthusiasm with a swear word every now and then? c'mon guys!

Happy Birthday Skylar Paige!

Today my baby turns 3! Where has the time gone? I cant believe my last child is potty trained, well learned, and socially excellent. I am proud to be her momma, even if she is a stinker. She is with her dad for her birthday, 2 states away, and im aching inside. I know she is having fun and i'll see her next week. I miss my girl so much. Here are a few things about her that I love.

1.) She is the smartest 3 year old ive ever met.
2.) She is goofy!! I mean really goofy...
3.) She has the tiniest feet
4.) You wont expect the rough, raspy, low voice that comes out of her.
5.) She loves to dress up like a princess, and tote around a light saber.
6.) She will banter with you like an adult, giving off her oppinions
7.) She LOVES nursery in church
8.) She loves to sing
9.) She adores her big brother
10.) She has huge teeth! haha
11.) She has sensitive feelings
12.) She loves to play drums and guitar

Fashion Faux Pas

Today for church I put on my favorite black pencil skirt that fit me oh so fine..nice and tight like a corset. I LOVED this skirt. I wear it with my 3 and a half inch heels which make my calves look oh so fine, and off I go! Today during sacrament meeting I had to pee...so I get up and go. Thats when I notice that my zipper has busted, leaving it attached at the top, but split open all the way down past my butt. CRAP!!! I have to head home leaving my kids and parents in their pew. Once I get home, I realize that I cant get the sucker off! Its too tight to slip above my head, and too tight to go below my hips..Im stuck. So I sit around with board shorts on the rest of the two hours, and my pencil skirt which is now cinched up at my waist, waiting for my mom to come home and help me out. She had to cut it off of me. Im so bummed cuz i freaking loved that skirt. Its been one heck of a day, followed by a family friend nearly choking to death on our patio..I'll save that story for another time, tho. How was everybody elses holiday weekend?

My pout session

Feel free to skip over this section if you dont want to hear my pout..I just needed an outlet without actually dragging others into my personal crisis. As you all well know, im newly divorced. Ive felt pretty betrayed this year on more then one occassion, and I just want my life to settle back into a nice normal routine..especially emotionally. I dont want anybody to feel like this rant is aimed towards them in any way..I realize that this is all MY issue, and everyone else is living life accordingly. My ex has found himself a girlfriend..which is fine. I really sincerely wish him all the best of luck in the world where he can find love and happiness....My beef, however, is that it happens to be a girl who hates my guts and relishes in my unhappiness. I can just see her laughing inside at that fact that she has the man who gave me up. (She was already flirting with him the day we announced our seperation.) I could ignore this...BUT she has now begun to infultrate my best friends. I know that she will have to be around them; I know that she will be aquainted with them in some ways; but the fact that she tries to buddy up with these people and send them cutesy messages really urks me. I know its not my friends fault...they are being courteous. I just wish that my ex could understand that enough is enough, where my hurt is emotionally. Is nothing sacred anymore? Is there no such thing as loyalty? I know this prolly sounds really stupid and unjustified..but its how im feeling right now and I cant control it. I'll prolly look back on it in a few months and go, daaaang, youre stupid! LOL. I already had my husband stolen away by a girl who hated me and wanted to infultrate my life..this just feels like a second hard blow with another girl who has always had it out for me. My ex told me to get over myself. I know i'll get over it...I just need to be sad for a minute.